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Shelley Lubben. Previously
Porn Actress and Prostitute,
Now is a Daughter of God.
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was born in 1968 and raised in Southern California. I am the youngest of 3 children and was born a girl with a personality strong determination "spiritual." The first 8 years of life my family attending a good church where I learned about God and Jesus . As a little girl, knew and loved Jesus very much.
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When I was 9 years old things changed in my family. We moved to Glendora, and left the church and friends we had known and loved. My parents stopped going to church and our family moved away from God and others. I grew up without much relation to each of my parents, yet they were not bad people. Much of our time together was spent sitting in front of the television. Our family loves watching television. I still remember many of the episodes of the shows of the seventies and eighties. The Love Boat, Three's Company, Star Trek, Twilight Zone, Chips, The Lucy Show (our favorite), The Munsters, The Carol Burnett Show, Gilligan's Island, Bewitched, Bonanza, and Happy Days . I was practically raised on television and I started thinking wrong and harmful. My mother often said that TV was a great babysitter.
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Growing up, I was different from other children. It was highly creative and writing poetry and short stories at an early age. I was very frustrated because I had a place to channel my creative energy. My parents did not include me in extracurricular activities and much of the time I spent very boring. At age 6, wrote, directed, produced and "starred in" work that I put on stage in school. My first grade teacher saw the creativity in me. She told my mother she was surprised and wanted me see where I would be at thirty. She thought I would become a Hollywood actress and movie producer.
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I was peculiar in the fact that I started masturbating and sexual orientation at a very early age. I was started on sexuality by a teenage girl and her brother when he was 9 years old and since then had several sexual encounters with boys and girls before age 18. Sex became confusing to me. Sex meant "love" for me and it felt good to be wanted by someone and receive attention but at the same time I felt dirty. I never recognized until later that he had been sexually raped as a child.
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As a teenager, I looked for love in the boys and alcohol and started having sex at the age of 16. My teenage years were filled with constant yelling and discussion between my parents and I . Had a mother who was angry with me a lot of time and a father who seemed to be too busy to have a relationship with me other than yelling for replying to my mother. not remember anyone saying "I love you" during those years s. My parents were not bad people but I felt I did not have much interest in me and I became a rebellious teenager who acted out resentful for get attention. But instead of getting their attention, my parents preferred to keep peace at home. So I was allowed to do things like dress like a playboy bunny at 15. I was allowed to date boys they did not know. At 15 I was allowed to go to a prom with a boy of 18 years that I got drunk for the first time. This started a lifestyle holiday me and started to spend much time in nightclubs using drugs at 16. My parents knew I had problems with alcohol but did not know what to do with me. Attending family counseling but my father was "busy" and only once was. So I got a new family and found "love" in the wrong crowd, drinking alcohol regularly and reaching a high point in marijuana. My parents came in great distress because of my actions, and finally, according to his opinion, told me I left home at age 18.
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ended up in San Fernando Valley without food and money. A "good" man saw that I was sitting and told me that he was sorry. He put his arm around me and comforted me and then offered to help. But then he said he knew a man who wanted to have sex with me and give me some money. I was still in shock and so full of anger because my parents dragged me kicking out so that I did not care no more and I accepted his offer. I sold it for $ 35 and a life of prostitution began for me.
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Shortly after I met a madam who introduced me on the "glamorous" of prostitution. I taught every trick on the exchange and how to manipulate men. At first glance appeared to be exciting men giving me money, jewelry and gifts, but soon became a life of slavery. grotesque I found having sex with strangers and began to hate. Customers would do things like break condoms on purpose or followed and harassed. A man tried to kill me hit me with his truck. Another man carried a gun when he was with me and threatened to kill me if I did not perform certain sex acts. There were men who made claims against me and I was constantly having to lie to get out of fearful situations. I became a professional liar and could literally lie my way out of everything. Even I lied my way out of IUDs (intra uterine devices) and several near-death experiences. This is the standard for the sex industry and is the primary tool of survival for any striptease dancer, prostitute or porn actress.
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the sex industry is getting worse and worse for me and I felt as they had nowhere to go. Jesus kept hitting my heart but I did not know. I thought, God was not taking care of me so I had to do everything I could to survive.
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This vicious cycle of working as a prostitute and exotic dancer in Southern California eight years. While working as a prostitute, I became pregnant clients three times and I was devastated. A million questions formed in my mind every time. How could I let this happen? How I'd take care of the baby? Should have an abortion? Who could I turn? I do not even I knew who the parents were two of the pregnancies. Then I remembered Jesus and I prayed, "Please help me." God comforted me and knew I could never kill a life and therefore I kept my baby. Two of the pregnancies ended by misplacement of the baby but one of them and had my first daughter, Tiffany, at age 20. She has a mix of Asian and very beautiful. I tried again only to exotic dancing, but prostitution and dragged me was hard to resist, especially as a single mother.
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After some years as a single mother and working as a prostitute and dancer, began to drink heavily and developed a terrible addiction to alcohol and drugs. Tiffany grew up a sad little girl innocence was ignored and constantly violated. As she grew older she realized that foreign men were "visiting" and put me wild. I hid in her room while "entertaining" clients. She also saw me in a "peculiar" relationship with women. She did not understand everything completely but it definitely was subject to live with a woman indecent and wild. I was such a bad mother that gave Tiffany a beeper and made her go to the park while I was doing tricks. She was only four years old.
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to see myself as a complete ruin. Reset all the values \u200b\u200band I hated myself for being a horrible mother. I was very tired of always trying to survive. Never had a break from that lifestyle. Men followed me home, my tires burst, called me all the time, came drunk at midnight, and even attempted murder. To make things work, always had a large bottle of Jack Daniels on hand. Sometimes I went to sit in a corner and cry my bottle completely taken over to Jesus, "Please help me!" But seemed that he was not there. Still felt a strange "protection!" around me.
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As my painful journey continued, I became involved in the industry of adult films. I learned I could make money quick and easy it seemed safer and more legal than prostitution. Many of the prostitutes I knew were being raped and sent to prison and I do not want that to happen to me. Also at this time I was a drug user and alcoholic porn strong and incapable of making rational decisions.
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When I made my first film Adult very "dark" came over me . could almost hear the devil say, "See Shelley, I'll make you famous and THEN everyone will love you." A strange and powerful force led me to act intense levels only to return from the top and find myself shattered from the shame and degradation. I liked the attention but I hated myself while . I liked to hear what I was good but hated the brutal sex. I started making porn movies strong, only with more drugs and more alcohol I could keep them. It was as if I had something to prove to the world and all I ever been hurt. And when the porn industry opened its big arms and invited me into their "family", I finally found acceptance. But the price I paid for this "membership" of the family was the price of my own life. I sold what was left of my heart, my mind and my femininity to the porn industry and women and the person who had died in my completely at the scene of porn.
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also become infected with the AIDS virus and other porn stars were. I played a crazy and deadly game of Russian roulette with my life. The industry is not required and not yet require the use of condoms which STIs (STDs) and HIV (human immunodeficiency virus) were and are still a risk among porn actors and actresses. In May 2004, the Medical Foundation Adult Industry (AIM), which offers testing each month for porn actors for HIV, announced that five "actors" porn had tested positive for HIV. I was luckier than those actors. God had departed from HIV. However contracted herpes, a sexually transmitted disease is not curable. I wanted to end my life. While I contracted herpes, I had no help and no one to help me deal with the disease. But since AIM came on the scene, the organization announced that it had fallen from the spread of HIV in the adult industry and raised the alert among actors. But the truth is out there, porn actors continue to risk their lives and esparcièndiose disease. In an interview on Court TV founder of AIM, Sharon Mitchell, who was also a porn star, admitted that the porn stars of today there is a "7% of HIV, and 12 to 28% of sexually transmitted diseases . Herpes is always about 66%. The people are prescribed with Acyclovir for herpes, which is very effective in the prevention of herpes infections. chlamydia and gonorrhea, however, along with hepatitis, seem to adhere to everything from vibrators until smooth surfaces and even hands so, pardon my expression, are usually filled up the ass of chlamydia. "
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Nothing is more devastating than to receive a positive test for a sexually transmitted disease is not curable. I wanted to finish my life.
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took a large number of prescription pills and cut my wrists but it seemed that no matter what I did, could not die . The pain was overwhelming and had horrible changes in mood. One minute I walked like a zombie and then the next minute throw fits of rage, screaming and breaking things. was angry with God, I hated myself and hated my parents. Only alcohol and drugs softened my pain. I cried to Jesus to help me and tried to leave the lifestyle, but within the next week would be back to the vicious cycle. lost all hope and I hated my life. I was completely hopeless and life was totally a life without any meaning. After being infected with herpes, quietly left the porn industry but went back to prostitution to survive.
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In 1994 I met a man named Garret. He was 22 years old and innocent compared to me. I told him he had money to exit. The claimed need my "services" to a college party and therefore I gave him my card. The frequently called me to leave and I said no. I was not able to have a normal relationship because my heart was completely black and cold to men . However, later, for some reason of God, I changed my mind and went with . We became friends instantly. As we passed the time together, black and broken my heart began to feel again. remember feeling physical pain, like today, when Garrett tried to approach me. (Look at the end of this movie Grinch when his heart began to grow and that I was.)
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I tried to keep the distant relationship but it was difficult because Garret made me feel like a little girl again . He came, we were already at a high point in methadone and played checkers and cards for hours. We were like two little kids having fun . I had "fun" one since I was a little girl. Garrett and I talked about everything and one day brought Jesus . We both grew up as kids loving and knowing Jesus Christ. Garret I knew had been raised in a Christian home and grew up attending a Christian school. For two people they met in a bar, this was a coincidence, "surprising." I I explained about the trauma which had passed and he was there for me. He knew I did porn and was a prostitute, but in turn he felt bad for me. He said that he wanted to rescue . Never met a man like Garrett. He saw something in me that nobody ever saw. He was a friend of a prostitute, as Jesus . We knew that God was working in our lives as we move into Jesus and got married on February 14, 1995.
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Our new life together began as a total disaster. Garrett lost his job after we got married because was at a high level of addiction at work. We had to go to the social welfare office and financial aid. Everything got worse and the temptation for me to return to the old way of life was overwhelming. But God had a better idea . Garrett entered the Army.
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After basic training, Garrett became a new man, free from drug addiction and due to the military base of Fort Lewis in Washington state. I became pregnant and gave birth to our daughter, Teresa, in 1997. I was able to quit drinking during pregnancy but soon returned to alcohol.
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held my new baby, remember me how I felt totally rejected by my parents and all men and women who abused me. God allowed me to feel a deep pain so that He could heal me but I could not hold the pain. I grabbed the alcohol return. But the pain became worse and then went for assistance in the mental health clinic and Army was diagnosed with bipolar disorder, impulse control disorder, Alcohol Dependence, Depressive Disorder and Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. I was prescribed zoloft, sleeping pills, lithium and assistance. I got videos of how to deal with anger to watch, which only became more brave me! I was in the substance abuse program but still took the Army. I was also diagnosed with early cervical cancer and told I needed to have surgery. The consequences of my past I was holding. I wanted to give up. Nothing was working! But God had a better plan.
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God led us to Garret and me to attend a wonderful church called Champions Centre in Tacoma, Washington, where they taught us how to live a life of champions. The church is known for being champions for life through the wisdom of the Word of God. They taught me how to live a life where I could it all because with God ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE. With God, I had a real forgiveness of my sins and a chance to grow into a whole new person without having first to be perfect. That was a relief! learned that God loved me unconditionally, regardless of my past and even had a plan for my future. God had a plan for my life? It was like somebody turned the light on for me.
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In November 1999, gave birth to our daughter, Abigail, and although they took part alcohol in pregnancy, God saved his life. After she was born, God finally answered finished my prayers and my addiction to alcohol . I began my sobriety on April 9, 2000, and was a very special time in my life. I started to want to know more about God and learn all about being a woman "normal." I started reading books on how to be a great mom and wife and how to cook and how to care home. I looked at other women to learn how they did the laundry of the clothes, how they dressed, how they talked to their husbands and children. SECRET Magistrate was a constant for many years. I could stand in the meat section of the supermarket and hear the lady next to me describing how to cook in a slow cooker I went home and rushed home to try! I stayed too long at the grocery store only to learn! Literally, I have probably over 100 mentors who do not even know how much that helped me. I had to start from scratch and learn how to be a normal person living in a normal society and started to surround myself with excellent people to learn from them.
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also practiced the principles of God in everything he did and I experienced a real joy for the first time in 13 years! God also helped me learn web design so I could have a sense of accomplishment and use my creativity. I and I operated my own business web page design for 4 years. You can visit my online portfolio www.slubben.com to watch all the power that God gave me to learn. (This website is not updated and is for reference only portfolio now.) I also began to attend college and am now just finishing my degree in theology. I did all this in six years with the help of the Holy Spirit.
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All because I chose to follow Him with all the enthusiasm, He blessed everything I touched just as the promises of His Word:
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John 13:17 Now that you know these things, you will be blessed if you do it.
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After that first day walking in the middle of Champions broken and disrupted, eight years later I walked out as Champion cured a woman and excited to live life! God totally restored me from drugs, alcohol addiction, pain of bad memories, mental illness, addiction to sex, sexual trauma, and guilt and shame of my past. God pulled me out of the old life, offered me a new life, and although I could not see at first, put my hand in His and took a chance on him WOW, that was the best decision I ever made!
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God also restored my femininity and healed my sexuality, which is a major miracle for me. After prostitution and porn lost ability to perform sexually. The fact that I can now enjoy healthy sexual relationships is an absolute miracle! God also healed me of the disease is not curable herpes. I was part of a military study for pregnant women with herpes in 1996 and when I examined said that I could not be in the studio because there was no herpes virus in my blood. The test came back negative! I also cancer free as doctors were able to remove all cervical cancer. Rophe He is Jehovah the God who heals!
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God also healed our marriage in a memorable way. Garret and I have a beautiful relationship and love that burns! Read our amazing stories here. God has done many miracles in my family. Garrett has a great job so I can stay at home and being a mom and exercise of ministry. Champions Our three daughters are being raised with the knowledge of Jesus Christ and attend Christian schools. My oldest daughter Tiffany, who is now 18, has forgiven me and loves his new Mom. She has overcome many things in his life and now shares her story with others to inspire and encourage. I am so grateful for not having had an abortion because Tiffany is a beautiful and brilliant young woman with much to offer . Tiffany is also a musician and plays drums, guitar and piano. God taught her in 3 years how to play several instruments and now she plays rock music for Jesus!
Shelley Lubben and Family
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You see, God the Father has been working miracles in my life these past eleven years. I had to go through eight hard years of recovery . I had to make the choice to start my life again and believe in what God said about me, not the lies of the evil or the lies I believed about myself. God became my true Father and He taught me how to love, forgive and look to Him for my identity, not my past. I also learned how to live a successful life by applying the principles of God to all. All what the Word of God said about it, jibe with me. I became a new creature in Jesus Christ POWERFUL, a champion for life!
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now God sent me to proclaim to the world the reality of His wonderful love. How He made us each of us in His image and we are completely loved and accepted. How He sent His Son Jesus to deliver drugs, alcoholism, sexual addiction, rejection and all the lies of Satan. I love to show the world that yes, God took a porn star and prostitute have made her a champion. God is the best Father and all He wants is for all His children to find their way back home to Him so that He can heal them and raise them to be champions too. But it is a choice that only YOU can do.
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I also want everyone to know that whatever God did for me, He will do for you. And He will because He loves you and sent His Son Jesus to give yourself a whole new life. All you have to do is come to Jesus and learn from
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Matthew 11:28 "Come unto me, all who are weary and oppressed, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in my heart, and find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light. "
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want rest for your souls? I know because I got it. I was sick and tired of being beaten by life. was tired of living every day for survival alone. I just wanted peace and find real love but the world could not give me. I looked for love in the men, in material things, in fame and riches, drugs and alcohol and still find it empty. All I wanted was a normal life. Then I discovered the truth:
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Jesus came to give life and give it more abundantly (John 10:10).
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And with total certainty, FINALLY found the life she always wanted.
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Why not put your beliefs in God and His Son Jesus and really experience the abundant life? may not happen overnight, but I promise you it will happen. I know because it happened to me. I am living proof that God exists, He loves you no matter what you've done, and that He has a perfect plan and purpose for your life. Please click here to learn more about God and His wonderful love for you.
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Her friend Shelley.
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Stay tuned for my book coming out soon. Speak candidly about my experiences in prostitution and the porn industry. Will make you laugh, mourn and most likely it will shock you, inspire you and give you hope! If you want to be notified first where to purchase a copy, send an email and I will contact you when it becomes available. Please put "book" in space to the subject.
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I would personally say "Thank You" to the many people who contributed to my healing and transformation:
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* Pastors Kevin and Sheila Gerald in www.championscentre.com - For teaching
wisdom and how to be a champion. Go get some of his teachings on KG Products C.
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* Smith Wigglesworth - The great apostle of the Faith who taught me to walk in an unwavering faith in God and that's why I can extend my hands on the sick in the name of Jesus and they will recover!
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Hulsey - For believing in me, encouraging me and giving me the opportunity to minister in prisons. They are also the BEST TWO adoptive parents that a child might have.
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* Nuggie Lubben - Being a wonderful mother. She taught me how to be a great mom and everything from laundry to iron clothes and doing fieldwork.
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* My parents - for loving me enough to make a prayer for me for years. Thank you for forgiving me. I love you Mom and Dad.
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* My Sister and Brother - By praying for me even when not deserved. I know was not easy. I love them both! I also pray to God to continue the restoration of our relationships according to His will.
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* My Grandma Italian, Nonnie - who believed in me when nobody else did. Who saw gold in me even when I was hiding. She said when she could do any thing that puts my mind. You will never know how many times he saved my life. She is a true champion.
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* My daughter Tiffany - For forgiving me and letting me grow and become a better mom for it. Thanks for the opportunity to love and be part of your life. Thanks for showing me the love of Jesus when he had none. Thank you for not let the past keep you back and instead choose to run the race like a champion. I am very proud of you for the wonderful woman you are today!
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* And a very special thank you very much my husband Garret - Thanks for being Hosea, Jesus and Abraham for me. Taking care of a prostitute enough to make it an honorable woman. You had faith and believed in God to change an impossible situation. You were humble, very patient for long and soft for a woman undone that needed a safe and loving environment for healing! You are a champion among champions. I thank God for having become the woman of your dreams.
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Special thanks to Francisco Duran by translate my story into English.
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The credits belong to Shelley Lubben.
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PINK CROSS FOUNDATION-THE PINK CROSS.
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is a foundation whose main objective is to help actors and actresses porn and any person who is addicted to pornography, the president is the same sister Shelley Lubben who with the help of the Holy Spirit has been preaching the Word of God prisons and large events where the pornography industry exhibitions are displayed as porn.
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Rosa Cruz Foundation and The Pink Cross has helped many, many porn actresses and actors out of the pornography industry, and many of these women and men now turned to Christ and born again are witness that Jesus Christ transforms lives RADICALLY . www.thepinkcross.org
Ex-Porn Stars, Daughters of God now
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Pray for Shelley Lubben and his ministry, and all women who are victims of prostitution, or if you are a victim of it, I tell you that there is an exit, and called JESUS \u200b\u200bCHRIST. Give your life and allow into your heart, follow it, Christ will never leave you nor forsake you and evidence of this is the life of Sister Shelley Lubben, a prostitute who now became a PRINCESS OF GOD, has a beautiful Christian family that serves God and as you read it, now is theological.
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Now is a nice Christian family.
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HERE ARE SOME EX-ACTRESS PORN THAT WERE, RESCUED, WASHES AND RESTORED BY THE BLOOD OF CHRIST AND THE CROSS FOUNDATION ROSA (THE PINK CROSS) MINISTER WITH THE SUPPORT OF SISTER LUBBEN SHELLEY: THIS IS WHAT WHEN DOES GOD HIS SON JESUS \u200b\u200bCHRIST GET IN THE LIFE OF A PERSON GIVES YOU JOY, PEACE GIVES, REFRESH YOUR LIFE AND GIVES purpose for living. THE SHOW BEFORE AND AFTER PICTURES OR BETTER SAID: BEFORE AND AFTER WITH CHRIST WITHOUT CHRIST.
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ALL THESE WOMEN ON THEIR PAST BELIEVED it was over, he no longer had HOPE THAT CAME TO JESUS \u200b\u200bTO THEIR LIVES. ALL OF THEM NOW ARE SOME PRINCESS OF GOD AND THEIR LIVES FULLY RESTORED BY THE POWER OF GOD. IF GOD DID THIS WITH THEM, YOU WILL ALSO. TOTALLY Give your life to God, NOT AFRAID, REPENT BEFORE TO ALL YOUR SINS, seek OF HEART AND I speak freely with God in prayer, and invite your Son Jesus Christ to come into your life. GOD YOU PROMISE THAT THE PIT you out where you are. JUST BELIEVE AND EXPECTED. AND WHEN THE DEVIL COMES TO YOUR PAST remind Remind YOUR FUTURE TO BE CAST INTO THE LAKE OF FIRE FOR ALL ETERNITY. YOU ARE NOT ALONE, GOD IS WITH YOU! AND HIS ARMY TOO!
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To see the first part of this article "THE TRUTH BEHIND THE FANTASY OF PORN" go to:
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